...a little peace of mind

So an eventful week eh?

What do you say at a time like this? I'm sorry? "I'm sorry" just doesn't really cover it. More like, "I wish I was there so I could have done something." "I wish this never happened." And why do want to say these things? Because we all want to take the pain away. Regardless of race, sex, religious preference, we are all still human, and on some deep level that many of us have been programed to ignore, we love each other.

I want it to go away, but more on a selfish level. I don't want to think about it. I want to be happy all the time. I don't want to grieve. I don't want to think that bad things happen. But they do. There are people out there and for whatever reason they lose it, and people suffer.

Can I tell you why? No. I can tell you that my God is in control of it. And if He wasn't? Then those death truly would have had no purpose. They would have been senseless, random occurrences. Who wants to think that way? Don't people want to believe that there is a higher purpose at hand? Why wouldn't you?

I want to cry for those people, just like Columbine, Heath High School, Jonesboro.

Some people who have no faith will ask, "Where was your God there?" I believe that they ask that question cause they really want to know. Some where deep down they don't want to think that this had no purpose.

Let me tell you where my God was.

In the classrooms

In the dorm

In the homes of the victims families awaiting the phone call

Listening intently to prayers

And yes even with the shooter

He was all around and He has a plan for all of this. It hurts, and it will leave scars.

I dont really know what else to say other than I know my God has a plan.