Even if no one reads it...I need to do it for myself.
I am a soldier in college and during the time that I am in basic training, the army sets aside money for all soldiers to put towards college. I have been in college for 4 years and I am now in my 5th. The money that the Army set aside for me has been used up and now I have to tighten my already sufficating belt. That is 480.00 a month that I have to make up for.I got a wild hair up my butt and decided to get crazy involved with school this year so my schedule is slammed. Meetings, classes, student goverment, mentoring....I mean slammed.When I saw today that I was 32.00 in the hole after all my bills are paid for September...I now needed to start thinking about October. I get a monthly drill check that barely breaks 200.00 a month. And people dare to say that soldiers are over paid.I now had to start thinking of things to get my next months bills paid...quick! Can I get a job? Not with all my comittments with school, no one would be crazy enough to hire me. Weekend job? Drill makes that an issue. I even went as far as to consider deploying to AZ. and finishing the year with online classes. But I have made commitments to kids who need a mentor...I can not leave them. So now what?Deployment was looking to be the only option at this point. But I cant think about that now. I have a youth group meeting with my kids (kids I mentor. not my own...i have none) Hard times have hit the youth leaders family so he was not able to attend, so my buddy David steps in with the message for the evening.He began to speak about when Jesus walked on water. A story I have heard soo manytimes so I began to lose the interest, but God made me listen.
In Matthew 14:27 says:
"Immediately Jesus spoke to them (the disciples on the boat)
"Have courage! It is I. Do not be afraid." (Matt.14:27)
Jesus was walking on the water, outside of the boat in the middle of a storm. These men who follow him daily thought he was a ghost and they were scared. They were thinking they are seeing ghost on the water, the boat is rocking, they dont know where Jesus is. Then Jesus assures them that it him on the water and not to be scared.That grab my attention. "Do not be afraid." I dont know about you but most people would say that me considering deployment to survive would be freaking out. So I listen more.Peter...the disciple I relate with the most...ask Jesus
"Command me to come to You on the water." (Matt.14:28) Jesus said, "Come." (Matt. 14:29)So Peter walks out, and he is walking on the water. But soon Peter sees the waves, and gets scared, and begins to doubt Jesus and begins to sink in the water. He screams out,
"Lord save me!" (Matt. 14:30)Jesus comes to Peter, reached out his hand and saved him. Jesus than looks at Peter and says ,
"You of little faith, why did you doubt me?" (Matt.14:31)So I am listening to this and going, man! I was commanded by God to take on these things. The mentoring, BCM...I felt like these things were taking up all my time and was the reason why I was "sinking." I took my eyes off Jesus and started looking at the waves in my life and I doubted that Jesus would be able to help in this. That was the real reason why I was sinking. Jesus called me to walk out in this storm, and he is waiting for me to keep going. I know Jesus will not allow me to sink. He has placed me where I am and in the situation I am in for a reason. He will take care of me and all my needs. Does that mean that I wont have to make scarifices? No..but I will be ok, cause he called me out into this storm.
Finally thought.
When Jesus delivered Peter back into the boat the storm stopped. I know this storm will stop, as long as I place my faith in Jesus, I know this storm will stop.